awesome song
This is from the movie @Suicideroom — awesome movie and this song inspired it, it’s by Canadian group Billy Talent and it’s called ‘Nothing to Lose.’
cute emoboy for saturday!
Sorry guys, life’s been a lot hectic of late but updates soon. Meantime here’s some pics of the very, very cute emoboy Jesse Andrews from Homoemo!
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gay pirates :D
is this real life
It was cold and raining all day today but even with paper-thin walls it just doesn’t seem so cold any more. Even a lukewarm shower wit Syd feels just perfect and we’re both tripping pretty hard, it must be better for him cos all I get is shit lighting up like crazy and thirsty as all fuck, I nearly downed half the 18-pack of PBR in the fridge which has no effect except to stop me dying of thirst and Syd just can’t stop laughing. And he’s horny as fuck, all this poor kid was tryin to do was take a bad shower before I even knew he got acid and he jumps right in with me, yeah put the tab on my tongue easy cos I couldn’t pay attention with his dick in me so fast it hurt, fuck Syd’s never done that before and fucking sucks he did it before me but that was good shit cos somehow even before the water got too cold I was tripping balls like the weird feeling that the water is solid just little bits of jelly sliding all over me and then the showerhead is like some giant snake but thank fuck a friendly one spraying glitter on us. He’s knocked out but I’m still going prolly another 30 before it shuts me down. The keyboard is wiggling on me lol. We son’t have shit but I just sat next to him on the bed and can feel his breath washing over me like pure water filled with stars. I somehow am not panicking that rent is coming up and we’re broke as fuck, it’s way to easy to forget the bad stuff when I crawl into our bed cos he always flops over and holds me tight. Just maybe if I get this blog going again we can stop working the streets cos I know bad shit happens and I can’t take another boy I love dying on me, just check these sites out for me plzzz if Ican prove we can make it without that I can stop thinking bout another guy all over the boy I love…
we are none of us innocent…
The best way to say it is that love is giving someone the power to destroy you and trust that they won’t. Or just maybe the damage is outweighed by the cold nights made warm because you’re under a blanky and would be freezing to death and in tears from loneliness, but just because that someone is holding you tight enough you don’t slip into the void.
We’re rentboys pure and simple now, this is how we survive, and to everyone but each other that’s all we have to offer. It was getting so depressing before I met Syd but that changed everything.
We argued at first if we were gonna change the lifestyle, quit this for good, hell we were almost on the way out the door to find a health food store and a gym but then we realized…this is who we are. We don’t do the things normal people do, coffee in the morning, 9 to 5, all that, and it would probably be an epic fail. We can’t. We decided to just do doubles then and the old man thinks I’m really getting into him but only cos Syd is watching which maybe it’s sad but that’s such a turn on. Do whatever the guy wants and go back home and it’s like intense fucking, I mean it gets me off to know Syd watched that and I let him do stuff to me I’d never let a customer do.
We’re both rather fucked up now and super tired but the doubles thing made us lots of cash…I mean it’s such an easy game, Syd is fucking adorable and says he just wants to watch and depending on the guy we tell him we’re brothers or boyfriends and the money is like flying out the old guy’s hand just to even get to blow him…$100 last night for his blowjob just cos we played it so well, lol. $50 more just to make up shit about us fooling around as brothers.
After I was like telling Syd how hot that was cos he really got creative and he’s like you wanna act it out? And I gave him a bath as his older brother fuck we messed up the bathroom real good, cum everywhere and I just flopped into the bath with him and our vodka and we kissed and held each other. We got out, well he got out and kinda had to pick his drunk older brother up lol, and then without warning he just started fucking me like … slow and it was so sweet. And right when he came he told me he loved me.
It was the first time I’ve cried for a good reason in so long and it freaked him at first but then he figured out why.
Last night was the first night I’ve slept without a nightmare all night in forever.
